From random to Birthday till random

I've not been updating regularly for no obvious reasons
The thing is, i was quite troubled by myself for the past few weeks.

Things have not gone well and the big plan i mentioned?
Well, i decided to let it go due to financial issue as well as no support from my family members...
Yea, ended up I myself feeling down about it even on my birthday itself.
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Birthday was quiet this year
Few of my close friends did came to my house with a cake the day before but left before the clock hit 12 LOLBut i was thankful that they put in effort to celebrate for me,
was not really in a good mood as well that time so i am sorry for being extra quiet and seriously, i have no idea how to handle surprise=.=
Thanks to Ailing, May, Yintse, Jason and Jong Hoong for that half an hour=)

Received bunch of sms-es but have no idea from who since i lost my phone as well as my contacts. Most of them i know now, but some don't bother to reply me who were them so....
Thank you whoever you are!

Was home alone when i woke up during my birthday until half an hour before i went out to have dinner with Jasle & SV....
Yea, i have no idea why i go home anymore since most of the time no one is at home..
Special thanks to both of them though for the dinner=)
It was normal but i enjoyed myself...
Old people dinner but i bet we were all glad! right?
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Enough of my birthday,
This week was suppose to be study week but i have no idea what to study
Have been sleeping a lot and i think i was depressed...
Coming out of it though~

To all my reader,
sorry i have become so lazy.......
Not enjoying my life for the past 3 weeks but i assure everyone i am coming out of it...

Till then,
Wish my luck in my final exams and presentation!

The Plan

Hmmph...
well, semester is coming to an end
I have quite a big plan this time and hopefully it can be carry out @.@

Till then.....
All the assignments have been done except for Studio & of course exam
Hopefully things went well=)

After a suicidal attempt

The clock kept on ticking,
Ideas does not come with the flow of time
The only things that came along with the pass of time was fatigue

When you have to work on something that cannot be finished you tend to be stressful.
There is no saying that once you done that amount of work you are done with it as it has no limitation.

You can sketch 3 drawings and say you are done or you can do 20 drawings with modal and come together with a pile of researches and say you don't think it is enough.
That's the life i am living in...
You tell yourself if the work is done and yet even you think you have enough, you might be told you show little effort or you are on the wrong track which completely blow you away.

Staying overnight in the studio can be dangerous if you does not prepare or if you are not used to it.
Studio in the middle of the night is a freaking cold room that you can store you ice cream in.
Taking the solid drafting table and the stupid bangku as bed does not trouble me much as i used to do that a lot.
So my problem is just the freaking cold temperature!

All these contributed to the zombie like me in the morning today.
The zombie like me presented my work fluently but when it came to questions, for the 1st time i cannot answer..... my mind freeze and i just wanted to get over with it at that time which i am regretting now.

One thing for sure is that i really salute Felix for being able to stay at studio for 5 nights=.=
It's like his second home by now and i know eventually i will have to come to life like that too.
People always thought we were doing last minute work but if it isn't last minute, we wouldn't be able to tell if what we are doing is on the track.
We did work before that, just that we keep modifying our work until seconds before our submissions... that's our life i guess...

Guess i am just too naive....
It's still a long way to go............
Hopefully, things will be right on track as time pass.....

Bad Luck?

A dark crow
staring at me once i get out of my car and try to open the gate
I even talk to it for awhile, asking it not to make any noise before i went in
but,
the crow just keep making noises once i opened the padlock.

People always said that
Crow bring bad luck and i never believe that!
Crows have feeling as well, i am sure no one likes to be called a bad luck bringer @.@''

As usual,
I went into my room and went online browsing through the internet.
It was when i wanted to go out for dinner
I COULD NOT LOCATE MY PHONE!!!
WTF

I was hoping that i left it in my car
but after searching like mad in my car and the whole house
there wasn't any sign of it =(

my heart sunk
just like when my lappie got stolen last year!
But i was a lot calmer.....
Guess i can only take whatever come to me.

I seldom lost my stuff even when i am a kid.
I always remember dad used to tell us to check our pockets all the time
and
I did.....

I don't lost my stuff, but once i did, it will be something like laptop and mobile phone?
I just wish i have the financial ability......

Maybe i am too tired to be cautious or maybe i am just stupidly careless
I mean, why now?

Why is it
When i am saving money to go for vacation during my holiday
When i ought to get myself a dslr
When i ought to have an ipod touch
When i want to get myself a bass with a good amp
When i am telling myself i don't want to use so much of my parent money

Why time like this?

Crow do bring bad luck eh?

New Chinese Culture

Found this video on my one of my friend's blog
It was really stupid i would say..
As a Chinese, i never know this is our culture!
I have no idea if this is disrespectful or sarcasm or just pure 0 knowledge...
Why would a function of a political party have such performance and furthermore claimed it to be Chinese Culture that have to be respected?

I mean,
please study about the culture about people around you before you speak please...
If it is Chinese Culture, why didn't i see such thing during Olympic in Beijing?!

How can a person that have been living here for so long know nothing about another race's culture yet simply claiming something to be what it wasn't?
"Kamu sendiri yang nak tengok persembahan begitu ka atau itu betul-betul budaya orang China?"

What kind of stupid function was that?=.=
How are you going to attract Chinese vote by

Showing something not Chinese
Eating something not Chinese
Creating more rubbishs
Creating noise pollution

Speechless i am=S